Praying for patience

I vividly recall being fourteen-years old, and having this mental image of a clock on my back. I could hear it ticking loudly, a constant alarm in my head that time was running out, that I was always “on the clock.” Sometimes I would picture myself in a room full of clocks, the old-fashioned circularContinue reading “Praying for patience”

Self-care Sunday ~ Social anxiety

Something that people don’t really talk about is the issue of social anxiety, how it differs from other terms it gets confused with, and how much it can get in the way. What is social anxiety? The ADAA (Anxiety and Depression Association of America) defines social anxiety as “intense anxiety or fear of being judged,Continue reading “Self-care Sunday ~ Social anxiety”

My Daily Routine & Cleaning Schedule

Stability, reliability, and consistency is so important to me right now. I’m focused on bringing more security into my life. As someone who greatly suffers from anxiety, I have found that repetition and steady routine in my daily life is enormously helpful. 🧘‍♀️👍✅ This past year, I have put a lot of thought into whatContinue reading “My Daily Routine & Cleaning Schedule”

Growing, changing, & healing

I have many things to explain and apologize for. I can’t take 100% of the blame, because I have also suffered greatly and also dealt with a lot of unclear communication. But I will take most of the blame and I am regretful over times I’ve been so cruel. I have never acted out ofContinue reading “Growing, changing, & healing”

Caturday ~ Catnip is not just for cats!

Nepeta cataria, most commonly known as “catnip” is a plant that causes psychoactive reactions in cats. Owners love giving their cats catnip order to stimulate play. After sniffing or consuming catnip, cats will get high and display silly behavior such as rolling around, vocalizing, rubbing their heads, and becoming more excitable. Catnip turns most adultsContinue reading “Caturday ~ Catnip is not just for cats!”

Flow Friday ~ Why I wear head coverings

As of April, I have made the decision to cover my head. I’ve been using headbands and headscarves. I want to explain my reasoning for this — both spiritual and practical. Disclaimer: let me mention that this is a personal choice. In no way am I saying that this is right, or forcing this choiceContinue reading “Flow Friday ~ Why I wear head coverings”

Good date, bad date ~ a short story

A continuation of good day, bad day. Electra and Adonis were about to go out on a dinner date at a fancy Italian restaurant: Red Mane. It was her favorite place to eat, right by her apartment. She had only been there a few times with friends, but it was always a great experience. However,Continue reading “Good date, bad date ~ a short story”

Self-care Sunday ~ Dissociation

Dissociation means to “dissociate from the world” by losing consciousness. It involves detachment from one’s feelings and entire reality. Dissociation is an involuntary, instinctual, survival response conditioned in early childhood as a way of responding to trauma. Those who frequently dissociate are likely to have a personality disorder due to a serotonin deficiency. During aContinue reading “Self-care Sunday ~ Dissociation”

Lifelong struggle with anxiety

I think that everyone in this world can say that they have gone through some sort of struggle with anxiety. But it certainly affects some more than others, to more intense degrees. And everyone deals with it differently. I can say that it has directly affected my health since before I could even understand theContinue reading “Lifelong struggle with anxiety”