Honoring Venus

Losing Venus has been a nightmare. I’ve been doing many things to honor her. I have to do all that I can to keep her light shining in my life.

I was given her ashes, her paw print, a plaque with her name, and the certificate of her cremation. I set up a little alter for her. I placed her ashes in the center, which is in a wooden urn. I found a polaroid photo of her, which I put on top. I placed her paw print in front and scattered around some crystals and charms.

I bought a photo collage of Venus, which I have hanging above my dresser. I chose my favorite photos of her, including her baby kitten photo, and one that had been taken very recently.

My sister and my dad got me a care package with some cozy stuff. And my sister also got me a beautiful ornament to hang on the window. I placed it on the window right next to the cat tree where Venus liked to sleep.

My friend Sally made me this cute little ornament of Venus, which she sewed together with felt. So sweet!

I ordered this gold necklace, which is an engraving of Venus and her name below. It’s hard to capture over a photo, but the image of her is super detailed. I uploaded this photo of her for the necklace. You can really see her. The necklace is small and lightweight, which makes it easy to wear every day.

I was looking back at old blog posts about Venus. I found the blog post from when I first got her as a kitten (here). I also looked back at my old journal from 2016 and I found the entry I wrote when I had first got her. It’s so funny because I was saying how she was so clingy as a little kitten, and how she’d probably grow out of that as an adult – but she never did! Venus remained very, very clingy for the rest of her life! Hahaha.

And in the blog post, I saw that my Mom had commented. I forgot about this. It was really nice to see that.

I also bought cremation jewelry, a necklace and a ring. I haven’t filled these yet and I’m not sure if I am ready to do so. But I know that wearing them will feel like a comforting reminder that she’s always with me – because she really is always with me in memory.

It has been so empty without her. I am still able to take care of myself and I have a lot of support around me. But it’s so hard to feel this loss. I miss Venus so much.

I made these two AI photos of us, and I’m sorry, I know that AI art is not great, but yeah… I do plan on going to an artist to get an actual real photo created of Venus.