30 day challenge | day 18 | what are your accomplishments?

DAY 18: [ISIS] What are your accomplishments?

Isis is the Egyptian goddess known for many things, most especially her strong ambition and how ability to move through obstacles.

One of my proudest accomplishments is that I have written and published two novels. I’m really proud of how much time and effort I put into them. I wasn’t doing it for profit, or to impress anybody; I was purely doing it for myself. My whole life, I have been making up stories and characters in my head, and to finally put that into a real book felt amazing. It took a lot of focus, motivation, and discipline to make that happen. It was a unique time in my life in which I was spending most of my days alone… and I’m not sure if I will ever be in that place ever again, in which I’m so isolated from the world and completely immersed in my head. It worries me that I won’t be able to write a book like that ever again – now that my life is much more social and I’m not in my head all of the time like I was during that phase. I would really like to, though.

And speaking of that time, from 2020 to 2022, I will always look back on this as the most independent time of my life. I was single, I moved out to live on my own, and was also going through a worldwide quarantine. I was by myself almost ALL the time. Especially in 2020, I wasn’t seeing friends, I wasn’t even seeing my own family for a very long period. It was literally just me and my cats. Work was my only “social life” – can’t imagine if I had been forced to work from home! I would literally go to work, come home and just write or do tarot cards. I wasn’t hanging out with anyone, I was just home all the time with my two cats. I don’t think people realize how much isolation I was in during that time. And I’m not complaining, I’m grateful for it – because I learned so much about myself and it made me much more stronger. But it’s crazy right now to look back and see how absolutely isolated my life was. I did end up going kind of crazy and my health deteriorated. I used to think I was antisocial, but after going through that time, I’ve realized that I actually do need people and I do need to socialize and feel supported by others. So yeah, that’s my second accomplishment, surviving that period of my life!